Since when is “being interested” an unacceptable (or inadequate) reason for doing something?
Lately, I feel like it’s a crime that I’m not doing things to fulfil some practical course of life or that the things I do do not necessarily fit into that “bigger picture” or that elusive something that I’m supposed to be pursuing. That elusive goal in life a.k.a. career
People are aghast when I say I do not know exactly (as of now) what I really want. I’m getting such looks of horror / people shaking their heads that I’m starting to be convinced that it’s a shameful thing.
“How can you not know what you want?”
But I really don’t.
(and I don’t believe that majority of us really do)
What I am now is an accumulation of my choices and decisions and when I was making those decisions, I have to admit that they were not feeding into some “bigger picture”.
When I first started learning Korean, I wasn’t thinking how it could make my resume look nicer, or that it will come in helpful should I decide to work in Korea. it’s simply because I’m interested
When I decided to spend so much time and effort in the language, it wasn’t because I am very convinced that I want to put it into good use in my future career. it’s simply because I’m interested
(and so on)
I see my direction in life as being shaped by these (seemingly haphazard and random) decisions that I make and I start to grow my passion in the things that I started doing out of “interest”.
I didn’t study Korean because I’m already super passionate in languages / want to work in Korea etc but it’s because of an initial “spark of interest” that I started learning Korean and then I got to love languages and Korea in general.
I was not a language lover right from the start.
I did not plan to do whatever I have done up till now.
But sadly, it now seems like ‘interest’ is no longer enough.
Taking the whole language thing as an example, I get so many people staring at my in disbelief when I said I’m studying it for fun. They probably expected me to have some “foresight” and said I’m studying Korean because I predicted that it will become a very important language in business (or whatever) in the near future or that I’m doing it because I already planned right from the start that I’m going to work in some Korean-related industry or company or what not.
So these days, I end up cooking up a lot of stories on why I chose to do xx or yy.
Korea is a technologically advanced country and I feel that there is a lot of potential to do business with Korean companies and for global companies to expand into Korea, especially in industries like technology, export, fashion etc. Hence I decided to learn Korean so that it will be a useful skill that I can apply to my future career …. (okay I literally just made that up)
In any case, I’ve decided to try to work hard and take the JLPT N2 exam in July 2014.
ahem I’m doing so because Japanese is a very useful foreign language in Singapore and there are a lot of job opportunities that open up to those who can speak / write Japanese
heh of course I’m just doing it for fun.
I’m gonna aim for a JLPT N1 certificate in the end (:
I’ll be happy if I ended up making use of these skills but no worries if I don’t.
It’ll be really sad if I’m learning a language just to look good in my resume.
Anyway, I strongly believe that language learning is something that cannot be sustained by simply “pragmatic” concerns. You need something more.
And that thing is interest