Got a jolt of shock when I saw that the last blog post was in August and the realisation that I have neglected my hobbies (yet) again made my heart sank a little. Couldn’t quite keep up the promise to myself to blog regularly, to learn languages and in general, to have a well-balanced life. Work has been hectic and there are no signs of it slowing down (for now).
Watched a Korean movie yesterday, for the first time in months, and frankly speaking, I was slightly apprehensive just before the movie started. How much of the movie would I understand, without referring to the subs? What if there were actually bits that I couldn’t catch? What if I realise that my Korean proficiency has dropped?
These were the thoughts running in my mind. I think the fear is real. I won’t kid myself that after so many months of not using Korean, my knowledge is still completely intact. I only have myself to blame.
2 years of not travelling to Korea. I wonder how many things have changed. Probably a lot.
Feeling a little scared and yet looking forward to the next trip to Korea, sometime in the future.
Until then, I will have to slowly pick the pieces back again and to find myself in the meantime.
Till the next post.
3 Comments
sfsd
14 October, 2018 at 6:58 AMso was the movie any good?? do you recommend it??
sfsd
19 October, 2018 at 7:06 AMalso I recommend kondo marie’s book. it’s a fantastic self-help book.
the english translation is The Life-Changing Magic of Tidying Up and the japanese title is like mahou no katazuke houhou.
lunabow
28 October, 2018 at 8:54 PMI don’t think I got an e-mail notification for this post, which makes me quite perplexed, but I’m happy I still managed to read it in October.
I think I understand your fear. I can’t focus on many things at once, so I had to cut back on the other languages I’m studying and chose only one to focus on. I had to cut back when I was in a very delicate stage… I guess I was going from beginner to intermediate and that’s why I’m scared I lost great part of my knowledge. I’ve even had a nightmare where I realized I really couldn’t speak one of those languages as well as I used to (which wasn’t that good to begin with, but you get the point). I still believe I made the right choice, but nonetheless it saddens me and, well, I don’t want to be confronted with how much I’ve actually lost, because that’s scary.
It’s true you’re responsible for your own lifestyle, but please don’t blame yourself too much. As you’ve said yourself, work’s been hectic and I can see how taking proper care of yourself can be difficult. I like that you concluded your post saying that you’ll slowly pick up the pieces again – I think “slowly” and “pieces” are the keywords here. Please, be strong and do take your time.