So… I was sorely disppointed over something, but it’s not like I didn’t see it coming.
And yes, it’s a cryptic post.
How does it feel to be eyeing and aiming for years and to get your hopes crushed completely? Second time that I’ve felt this crushing disappointment. No tears this time, I still remembered how badly I cried the first time it had happened. But strangely, I feel (mostly) ok today. I cannot decide if it’s becuase I didn’t work hard enough or if it’s simply not my route to take.
I really don’t know.
It doesn’t seem like I’m getting anywhere near the picture I have painted of myself at 30 yrs old. Oh well. What can I say?
I’m really curious if you guys turn out the way you envision yourself to be? Hahaha how come it’s never the case for me. 😒
Growing up is so… tough that it’s fascinating :/
The next step I’m going to take will throw my life into more confusion. 😣 And I wonder why I would still do it.