Looking back at the past entries, it seems that my passion for languages burnt the brightest in the years of 2010-2012. 2013 marked the turning point, where i had to recalibrate my life, ideals and goals. 2014 was the year where I tried to rebuild myself, and 2015-16 were the lost years. The past 2 years were rather rollercoaster-like, and I learnt many valuable lessons. I accomplished a number of things, yet I felt that I moved backwards in some areas. There’s this feeling of emptiness and loss, which I couldn’t quite pinpoint until recently.
I seemed to have lost that burning passion. Or maybe it was just on the backburner. Given that it was my defining quality and a big part of my identity, I feel lost when other stuff get prioritised. It’s great to learn more and to venture into other areas, but I think it made me unhappy when I had a lot less time to immerse myself in languages. Thus, a major goal of 2017 would be to find that balance again.
There was a time not too long ago where I contemplated deleting this blog (which luckily I didn’t). I did delete my Twitter account though, which I feel a twinge of regret (but nevertheless a sound decision lol). I’m glad I didn’t delete this space, but the fact that I even thought about it was quite telling.
Something’s lost or changed in me.
The realisation was a good thing and I must learn how to better balance different aspects of my life.
I’ve spent a good part of my twenties feeling both somewhat accomplished and yet very much lost at the same time. Hopefully 2017 would see some positive changes in this aspect.
I need to learn how to face things head-on and be true to myself.
I hope everyone’s having a good 2017 thus far (: