Something’s lost

5 January, 2017

Looking back at the past entries, it seems that my passion for languages burnt the brightest in the years of 2010-2012. 2013 marked the turning point, where i had to recalibrate my life, ideals and goals. 2014 was the year where I tried to rebuild myself, and 2015-16 were the lost years. The past 2 years were rather rollercoaster-like, and I learnt many valuable lessons. I accomplished a number of things, yet I felt that I moved backwards in some areas. There’s this feeling of emptiness and loss, which I couldn’t quite pinpoint until recently.

I seemed to have lost that burning passion. Or maybe it was just on the backburner. Given that it was my defining quality and a big part of my identity, I feel lost when other stuff get prioritised. It’s great to learn more and to venture into other areas, but I think it made me unhappy when I had a lot less time to immerse myself in languages. Thus, a major goal of 2017 would be to find that balance again.

There was a time not too long ago where I contemplated deleting this blog (which luckily I didn’t). I did delete my Twitter account though, which I feel a twinge of regret (but nevertheless a sound decision lol). I’m glad I didn’t delete this space, but the fact that I even thought about it was quite telling.

Something’s lost or changed in me.

The realisation was a good thing and I must learn how to better balance different aspects of my life.

I’ve spent a good part of my twenties feeling both somewhat accomplished and yet very much lost at the same time. Hopefully 2017 would see some positive changes in this aspect.

I need to learn how to face things head-on and be true to myself.

I hope everyone’s having a good 2017 thus far (:

4 Comments
    1. I am glad you decided not to delete your page. I have just recently started following. 🙂 I hope you are able to get your “groove” back and feel balanced. I agree with your thought and I should also set a plan for a more balanced 2017. Instead of just running around uncoordinated wasting effort. Happy January!

    1. Change is good, most of the time 😉 When you work using the language you have in fact achieved the goal of language perfection! Learning the language with the aim of being able to do things with it is by definition no longer a goal, you’ve done it. Short of writing a novel(or perhaps translating) or getting involved in the movie business I can’t help feeling you are where you aimed to be.
      Still an 2급, already knew 불합격 but it was a bit embarrassing with my first go at the Topik2 last October. I don’t have to worry about achieving goals….
      Still enjoy reading your blog so don’t stop 🙂

    1. Language is not all about passion and torture as in cramming textbooks in your head or copying hundreds of words or sentences from the dictionary etc . It’s about doing anything in that language and if you keep doing it it will build up to something. The only way to do that is to do something you enjoy. for me with Korean it was always on a back burner because I have so much crap to consume in Japanese but despite the neglect I still did stuff in Korean over the years from summer 2011 to now and those little things or sporadic intense hours built up to my current Korean level.

    1. Everyone has a down time regardless what they do. I believe that you will never delete this blog as long as your initial intention of starting this blog in the first place – sharing your language learning experience, tips and advice – still stays in your heart.

      Other things moving up your priority list from time to time doesn’t mean that you’re losing it. I believe it’s just that all of us don’t get to do that one thing that we like all the time. You remain an inspiration for many language learners and I think that alone should be enough to keep you going! Thank you!

      P.S. Twitter is dead anyway 😛

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