Like I’ve said in several posts before, I’m an incredibly non-pragmatic person. No matter how much I really need the money, I can’t see anything in terms of money. “If I do this, how much can I earn?” “I should do this because it gives me more money” I don’t think this way. I can’t base my choices solely on money, I must base them first on passion / interest. Here’s hoping that my passions can somehow lead to money? Destined to be poor for life D:
Anyway, I’m currently in that stage in life where I have to figure out what I want and plans for the future. I do have several tracks in mind that I’m keen to explore and they are all very different. Because they are so different, I’m so scared that once I veer towards one direction, I can never get back to my other choices. Do I make sense? I do have the confidence in doing well for whatever choice I make, but the fact that the paths are sooooo different is making me hesitate a little. (They are all either majorly or minor-ly or somehow related to Korean)[I’ll be happy in any of the tracks. But will they want me???]
My strength and my weakness, as some people have pointed out, is my one-track mind and my obsession / love for Korean and Korea. My love for Korean is what drives me forward and I think it’s no secret that I really want to go back to that country. hahaha. Everything I do is really in hope of being closer to that goal one day. Sometimes I scare myself with my single minded persistence. lol.
To put it in another way, it’s also my weakness. Because I simply can’t see anything else outside of Korean/Korea. You can say that I’m narrowing my options, because I refuse to consider anything that has nothing to do with Korean/Korea. (Japan /Japanese is ok :D) My interest level in something totally drops if it has nothing to do with Korea. At this moment, I can’t envision doing something that has absolutely nothing to do with Korean. At the moment anyway. I may become desperate later on. lol.
People always tell me that my passion and hard work will be rewarded. I desperately want to believe it and I look forward to the day when I can meet someone / some place that really appreciate my skills, and who I am.
I really dislike it when people tell me to keep Korean as a hobby. Keeping Korean as a hobby is not enough for me, I know. Deep down, I know that I probably won’t be able to last long in anything that is totally unrelated (I can still be good at it though) and my life will probably be very miserable hahaha.
Yeah, this is my one-track mind.
예전에는 꼭 멋지고 남들과 다른 삶을 살고 싶었는데,
이제는 평범한 삶은 더 행복할 것 같다고 생각한다. ㅋ