I feel like I’ve gotten a lobotomy during these few weeks without even realizing it. Maybe that will explain the recent love and obsession for all things Japanese. Seriously, I’m not kidding. I now love udon (I used to hate it) and I even have miso paste at home (a first). Okay, that sounded quite silly. Another example? The other day I couldn’t sleep so I was up listening to music. Subconsciously I just scroll past all the Korean songs and straightaway to the Japanese albums that I’ve never listened to before. コブクロ!! I was never a huge fan of Japanese music but now it just sounds super soothing and comfortable to my ears. My ears cannot take kpop at the moment. Sorry.
hehe I still have the audio blog lessons from Japanesepod101 that I subscribed to. Yeah, those from 2008. I used to be able to understand nothing but I was really surprised to find myself understanding and enjoying the content now. Who knew. There are at least 10 other examples how I’m very much in love with Japanese, but we’ll stop here eh?
It’s not just the language part of my brain that underwent a lobotomy. Recently, I found myself very obsessed with wanting to pick up the organ again, something that I’ve not really actively thought about for years. Yeah, I used to play the instrument and for reasons that I cannot fathom (from the point of view of my present self), I gave it up. Seriously, I had no idea what my past self was thinking. I wasn’t bad at it, but I just hated to practice. At one point of time I got sooo frustrated and angry at the organ that I would start banging on it -.- like wtf. Perhaps that explains why some of the keys and pedals are no longer working on my old organ and I’ll have to risk an electric shock if I try to switch it on. hahaha. My present self will very much want to travel back in time and slap my past self.
Took my music scores out for the first time in 10 plus years and totally 한심하다 that I don’t know how to read them anymore. D: Strangely, there’s only one piece of music that remained in my memory after all these years and it’s the only piece that I think I’ll still be able to play (part of it anyway). I still find myself humming it sometimes. Bourrée (from Overtune in F) by Bach. That was my exam piece years and years ago and I really liked it a lot.
So I’ve been thinking and thinking about picking it up again (like self study hahaha). I still remembered how much I love the sound on a Roland Atelier Organ. Used it for a few times before but so many years down the road, I still remembered xD Totally sound different from the one I had at home. Definitely won’t be able to afford one (15 years down the road, maybe?) but hopefully I can own a simple organ again 5 years later.
I don’t know why, but I really really want to touch an organ again. Yeah I have an obsessive streak, so once something is on my mind, I can’t be in peace until I do something about it. Maybe one of these days, I’ll go look at them again (: