Is there such a thing as pre-departure hormonal problems? I guess not. I was never the kind that will take kindly to things that rub me off the wrong way, but nowadays I don’t know if I’m just extremely sensitive or that I’m justified to feel that way.
I don’t like to ask personal questions or keep probing for details. And I definitely don’t use the interrogating tone with people. I’m at the age where the most common (and hated) questions are “Have you found a job?/What do you want to do in the future?/What are your plans?” To be honest, I do ask these questions sometimes too. But I don’t use that as a greeting as soon as we meet, and if I get a vague / hesitant answer in return, I’m happy to drop the topic and move on. And I refrain from being judgmental. Who am I to say anything about your decisions?
I usually try to rein in my rude and blunt self, but it’s getting really annoying so I’m getting harsher in my replies -.- If you are really curious, just read on and stop asking me those questions. Reading the replies is better than me saying it in your face right?
1. Why not get a job first?
Is that any of your business? Do I owe you anything to explain to you how I ended up on my decision? Are you going to live my life for me?
2. Wah so rich, go overseas.
Superficial much? I totally will judge you if I get another such comment. 함부로 던진 말은 너 추하게 만들 거야 (translation: the words that you toss out so casually will make you look like a loser). I am not rich. I sacrifice a lot, and am taking a big risk to pursue what I want. Is that wrong? Do you see the angst, the stress, the worries I went through?
3. If you are sacrificing and worrying so much, why go?
Did my favorite author have a saying along the lines of “Because it’s hard, it’s worth pursuing?”. I think so. Nothing is easy in life, and I think this is something worth sacrificing. I only live once and I’m in my 20s only once. Sometimes it’s really a now or never thing.
3. Are you sure your Korean is good enough?
Don’t have to give me that doubtful tone. I can outrightly tell you that my Korean is NOT good enough. I always believe that the hardest and most painful will be the most effective / shortest one. HAHA. If I wait till my Korean is good enough, I think I’ll be ready to go in 10 years time. Maybe I do need Korean lessons or something, but hehe I work well in extreme stress lolol. It will bring out that competitive spirit in me. Become really good in Korean + get a masters degree + live in my favorite country + do the things I like + a chance to strive hard for my dreams + live with no regrets. See. So many objectives achieved with one decision.
Never wait till you are good enough to do something. You will only become good enough if you do it. ^^
4. What are you going to do after this?
Actually, I haven’t thought much about it. Life is really not something that I can plan and somehow I never end up anywhere that I intended to be.
5. What? So you mean you don’t have any plans at all? *incredulous look*
Well, I do have goals, things that I want to go into, and stuff that I think I’ll be happy doing. It’s a wide range. Not telling you doesn’t mean I don’t think. And if I had followed my plans so well, I won’t be doing anything Korean at all in my life. THIS WAS NOT IN MY PLANS.
On the upside, I’ve finished packing!!! Well, except things that I still need, like charger or something.
I said a long farewell to my bookshelves D: