“you are pretty good already”
“that’s enough to survive in Korea”
“it’s good enough already. You can already do this and that in said language”
“how good you want to be? hahaha”
“don’t be so greedy. You are already so good!”
I think one of the things that I’m really scared of is that one day I’ll be satisfied when it comes to the languages that I’m learning. No matter if the satisfaction comes from within or from the compliments / comments that I get from people around me, I think it’s scary. Once you come to a certain level of ability (no matter in what), I think it’s very much in human nature that you will start to think “hey I’m pretty good” and be happy about it. No matter how much we try to deny, I’m sure everyone likes compliments and they will get to you somehow. It’s not that easy to brush off compliments and be totally unaffected about it. 칭찬이 독이다. I believe in this lol.
Come of think of it, I’m kinda guilty of telling people similar things too.
“Please.. you are super good already!!”
“You are already better than so many other people out there!”
Guilty of it. Why am I saying the same stuff to other people when I don’t like hearing things like that in the first place?
I admit that I have a lot of .. ambition(?) when it comes to Korean. I don’t want to be “good”, and I don’t want to sit around feeling happy that I’m considered pretty good for a foreigner who is learning the language (at least amongst my own social network – the world is damn large).
However, to be very honest, I find myself slipping down into the “quite satisfied” zone recently. I don’t feel any particular need to work super super hard for Korean at the moment, and I’m happily leaving Korean aside to focus on Japanese at the moment. Lacking internal and external motivation. To put it even more bluntly, I’m acting this way because I don’t feel threatened. (HAHAHA what am I saying)
But I don’t like myself for it. I think I am one of those people who needs 자극 and a poke in my pride/ego every now and then. I can get quite competitive and I like to feel that urge to improve and get better haha. Right now, I need to be be made to feel that I suck so badly at Korean that I should be ashamed to think that I am pretty good. I need to be put in that situation again when I find myself unable to express myself properly in Korean, unable to read in Korean. I think I need to be in Korea again.
To be amongst Koreans. To meet more foreigners who are learning Korean (and who are damn good at it).
Back to talking about those comments. I get them quite a lot to be honest. A lot of people cannot understand why I want to get to that “native standard” and they think that I should totally be satisfied with being functional in the language. Is it a bad thing if I want to strive to be even better? Is it becoming a norm that “good” is more than enough? D:
I don’t know.
Hard to put this into words. While I can be totally happy about being “good” or “passable” in some things in life, there are some that I really want to keep taking on to the next level. And I think Korean is one of those things at this point in life.