The past 2 weeks simply passed by in a flurry of activities. A close friend got married, had a catch-up friend with a middle/high school friend (and got updated with the lastest
gossips news) and juggled with all the stuff at work. Coupled with mental and physical fatigue, I didn’t spend much time on the languages.
I’m subconsciously countdowning to a non-exsistent end again and it’s pretty dangerous how I can’t seem to live in the present >< I spent the last 5 years of my life doing that and countdowned to the purchase of that one way ticket. I tried to leave as little as possible behind and that probably contributed to my 꼬여있는 성격 now. That ticket didnt work out in that end but I guess the living in the future thingy is ingrained in me -.- at least I am self-aware of my own faults. Sorry if I am half cryptic. Back to languages, I am actually v v v depressed over how sucky my spoken Korean has now become. No amount of comforting is going to help - I have a lot of self-awareness and I'm not even trying to be pretentiously humble. :/ Was I too complacent in believing that my (not so good in the first place) skills wont leave me even without practice?