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A passing blur

The past 2 weeks simply passed by in a flurry of activities. A close friend got married, had a catch-up friend with a middle/high school friend (and got updated with the lastest gossips news) and juggled with all the stuff at work. Coupled with mental and physical fatigue, I didn’t spend much time on the languages.

I’m subconsciously countdowning to a non-exsistent end again and it’s pretty dangerous how I can’t seem to live in the present >< I spent the last 5 years of my life doing that and countdowned to the purchase of that one way ticket. I tried to leave as little as possible behind and that probably contributed to my 꼬여있는 성격 now. That ticket didnt work out in that end but I guess the living in the future thingy is ingrained in me -.- at least I am self-aware of my own faults. Sorry if I am half cryptic. Back to languages, I am actually v v v depressed over how sucky my spoken Korean has now become. No amount of comforting is going to help - I have a lot of self-awareness and I'm not even trying to be pretentiously humble. :/ Was I too complacent in believing that my (not so good in the first place) skills wont leave me even without practice?

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    26 March, 2015 at 6:56 AM

    Yes, know the feeling. But seriously languages are performance skills, so you can’t stop practicing and not got worse, ask any soccer player or musician…. Cheer up, read a 만화팩 and have a coffee 🙂

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      4 April, 2015 at 4:20 PM

      haha that’s true! Thank you! <3

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    26 March, 2015 at 7:16 AM

    I thought of a question… do you think your speaking skills in english or mandarin has improved in the past 6 years or 10 years. By that I mean have you become more articulate or learned more vocabulary from reading etc. I just throw this question in there just because you shouldn’t treat korean so special. i understand that you are “fluent” in english and you never achieved fluency in korean for speaking but i think looking at it like that may be helpful to your assessment of the situation. I think for me if anything my english speaking skills probably has worsened in the past 6 years just because i’m not a very talkative, social person and i’ve been so immersed in korean and japanese (most japanese overall though currently it’s mostly korean). If I spend all my summer reading japanese books obviously my english isn’t improving. that has happened for at least 2 summers lol. But I do know of people who cannot shut up and they just do not stop talking but I didn’t think they are particularly articulate or had good vocabulary. they were still idiots that i don’t want to listen to and i thought they could been be spending they’re time more wisely in other activities they would serve them better. someone’s personality trait is not the only factor in that.

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      4 April, 2015 at 4:23 PM

      hahaha yeah I know what you mean. Can’t help but treat Korean as “special” as it’s a language that I spend a lot of time / effort in and still it’s a struggle to get to basic fluency (okay iffy definition here). Now that you mentioned it, I think my Mandarin has suffered in the past few years (speaking wise at least). Time to buck up! haha

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        20 April, 2015 at 3:37 PM

        Haha my Mandarin is the pits and I think my English has deteriorated slightly. My Korean is decent but not improving. I’m alone most of the time and obviously I don’t talk to myself lol. I’m surrounded by Koreans and a few people who speak American English. It’s all about time and opportunity cost and unfortunately things have to be sacrificed at the expense of other things. Your Japanese is pretty good since you can read books! But there are so many things to learn and keep up with and so little time!! 힘내세요~~

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