A terribly busy semester and lack of time is making me increasingly irritable these days. And I suddenly thought of a few questions and negative thoughts that plagued me from time to time. I think most self-learners will have such thoughts from time to time and I just want to share my thoughts. Not encouraging any negativity (:
Although most people think that it’s already pretty good that I’m more or less fluent (depends) in Korean after FOUR years, I have heard comments like oh, My friend was fluent in TWO years, why did it take you FOUR years. ㅋㅋ
and all that what-ifs came to my mind.
- What if I have the financial luxury to study Korean in Korea for a long period of time (over a year) when I first started learning Korean? – By now I’m kinda stuck in my writing habits and it’s 10 times harder to get rid of the wrong habits
- What if I was able to take Korean lessons? Would I have reached my standard now in a shorter period of time? – Will I have a better accent? I’m kinda stuck now too in my weird accent.
- etc etc
I have friends who are studying for long periods in Korea and they come back with a higher proficiency / more accurate accent in a shorter time period or with less effort than self-learners.
I’m not saying that it’s unfair or anything, but I just wondered what I would have been if I had the same opportunities. Could I have been much better?
And whether it is true or not is a different story, but people tend to see those who have lived in Korea / studied in Korea as better and more proficient than self learners, even though both may be holding a TOPIK level 6 cert, just saying.
ㅎㅎ We just have to put in 10 times the effort to gain the recognition. Here’s hoping that effort can trump the lack of finances/luxury of time.
This is probably why I really want to achieve that TOPIK level 6. I just want to show that being a self-learner does not necessarily mean you can’t achieve proficiency.
Okay, I don’t really know what I’m talking about anymore. All that report writing has fried my brains.
Any negative thoughts you had in your learning journey? ^^