Listening to all the old SG Wannabe and December songs again and they always have the effect of making me sad or reflective. >< Sometimes I wonder what will happen to this blog. It’s like how I can’t write this forever and yet I’m not willing to abandon it. Maybe one day I’ll decide to stop writing Hangukdrama and move on to another phase in life but I really hope that for whatever reasons I choose to stop writing, it’s not because I have given up on my passions.
Thinking about what 2013 will bring makes me a little scared. It can go either way and I feel like a kite that has its string cut. D: Keeping a blog is therapeutic. Whether you do it deliberately or not, having a blog or something in the public domain makes you have a public persona which is different from how you are like outside of that domain. My online persona is very much a true part of me and I don’t lie or fake a persona here. But I do have my other sides. My insecurities, my weaknesses, my other personalities and my own worries etc. It feels like the blog brings out the best in me, just like how being in Korea brings out the best in me (most of the time). hahaha. Writing this blog makes me strive even harder to be the person that I want to be. (: And it anchors me and keeps me in sight of my passions and dreams.
This holidays I have been spending most of my free time on Korean and a bit of Japanese. I can’t explain my love for the Korean language and culture and sometimes I don’t understand why I’m so happy just being immersed in my own little Korean world. Reading 전우치 is like one of my favorite daily activities and I really like the life lessons etc I’m taking away from the novel. Some people feel that novels are more or less a waste of time and non-fiction is more ‘helpful’. Since when has reading become something so pragmatic? Good novels make you learn a lot too. And at the minimum, it’s just a good way to relax and spend some leisure time.
Spending a lot of time learning about the contemporary history of Korea. For what, you ask? No reason. I’m just interested to learn more. Expanding my vocabulary by quite a bit these days and as usual, I feel that I have only touched the tip of the iceberg when it comes to the Korean language. I wish I can spend the rest of my life researching and learning about Korean (:
Thinking about the future~~~ I think I’ll be very happy working in a research institue, in a university or a museum. 😀 hehe I think I’ll be like awesome happy organizing exhibitions regarding the Korean language / history / culture hahahaha. And I think I’ll be super happy in the King Sejong Museum. Just saying.
Things change. Passions change. Dreams change. The things we want change. Nobody will know what the future brings, but this is how I feel right now. I don’t like my dreams and passions to restrict what I want to do. Dreams and passions are to light up a path, not to close off all other paths. As of now, I will just keep moving forward. If I can be genuinely happy about what I do, that is good enough for me.
What you should be chasing is not the best of society, but the very best of yourself.
That’s enough reflections for the day~!