6 In Korean learning journey (:/ TOPIK

보이지 않는 미래

That deeeeeeep unsettling feeling is back again. As I cross out each day on the calendar (metaphorically), I feel like I’m doing a count-down to… the unknown. Yeah I’m at that stage of “deciding my future”, the stage where some of you guys have already gone through, or some too young to think about it. The dreaded question “what are your plans?”. Sad to say, I have no idea. I am working hard (always am) but there are days (like today) where I start to wonder what am I doing. Sometimes I see a glimpse of what I can possibly do, sometimes I don’t. Right now, I’m wondering if I’m going in the right direction. Right as in right for me, not right in the sense of what others may think.

It’s funny how some people expect a clear direction / answer to the “what you want to do” question. Must I really have one clear path? One and only one? I don’t know, I can see myself being happy in a lot of areas. I’ll be happy working (in areas where I have an interest in), doing graduate studies, or getting married and being a housewife (HAHA least possible option).

Sigh. I will work hard so that one day (hopefully soon) I can proudly announce on the blog that I’m happily doing ____________ and carving out a niche for myself.


On the other hand, I’m really grateful to all those who have been leaving me comments. Was reading the comments on the previous post about TOPIK and I realize that I should start putting in more effort to prepare for the exam. Less than one month to go. Aside from the issue whether TOPIK 6 is an accurate reflection of Korean proficiency or not, the fact still remains that I’m taking an EXAM and hence I should prepare for it. I don’t want to leave any room for regrets that I could have done much better if I had put in more effort. Passing it is definitely within my limits and I don’t want to whine and whine about it afterwards when I didn’t even put in the effort required. ^^

So I shall leave aside Japanese for now and start to concentrate on TOPIK ^^ Kinda personal achievement? I want to show myself that I can do it.

No use talking, I’ll work quietly on it!

Again, very very thankful that I have you guys around <3

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  • Reply
    Fajar Priyanto (@fajarpri)
    28 March, 2013 at 4:15 PM

    Pardon me to ask: How old are you? 23/25? ^_^
    Need to decide on what you like to do (not what you have to do).

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    29 March, 2013 at 1:00 AM

    Hello Shana !

    I’m going through the exact same stuff… I haven’t got a single clue about what I wanna do… I have so many restrictions that I can’t go towards the thing I would really want to do… But when I think about it, I don’t even know if that’s what I really wish for… And these days I’m really getting depressed because 95% of my classmates are going to S. Korea for summer or a year and have been talking about it since more than 7 months everyday and it’s been really hard on me because I’m not… I already feel so down because I have the impression that I’m not improving at all despite all the daily work that I do in Korean (like 3h min/day) and seeing everyone being able to fulfil their Korean dream without me is really hard.
    So today I had to think about you, I really admire how you’ve been able to become so good at Korean without spending a year there (if I’m not mistaken you only spent a few months right?) Well anyway you’re really the symbol of hope for me (seriously xD) when I see how good you are with your self studying I think that I shouldn’t give up mine and continue to work hard to attain a good proficiency, I should be able to do it too (even if everyone is different) ! I will also work hard for topik ! 우리 같이 화이팅 🙂 나는 너의 블로그를 읽는 것을 아주 좋아해요 !! 힘내자!

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    29 March, 2013 at 1:03 PM

    Ahhhh. I know how you feel. I graduate in May, but I have no idea what I want to do. I have a good degree as far as practicality goes… However around last semester I realized I hated what I do and never want to do it for a career… I discovered my language love far too late.

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    31 March, 2013 at 2:54 AM

    @blackbrich 나도.. me too .. I wish I discovered it earlier also. But everyone tells me it’s not too late still. I will keep striving toward my goal!

    Yeah we should pursue everything that we want to do, may it be one thing or several things. Hahahaha housewife xD I just see you just doing anything involving Korean in future, and I hope I can do the same! Or just anything that makes you happy 😀

    I’m sure you will pass TOPIK 6!! Good luck!^^
    We should be thanking you for bringing together many Korean learners far and near~~

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    1 April, 2013 at 2:06 AM

    All the best for TOPIK 6!
    I’m spam commenting on some of your entries now because I always read them on the phone and they’re so not productive for leaving comments xD Finally had time to open your site on my desktop!

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      1 April, 2013 at 10:41 AM

      Thanks Alice!! <3 hehe keep the comments coming 😛

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