That deeeeeeep unsettling feeling is back again. As I cross out each day on the calendar (metaphorically), I feel like I’m doing a count-down to… the unknown. Yeah I’m at that stage of “deciding my future”, the stage where some of you guys have already gone through, or some too young to think about it. The dreaded question “what are your plans?”. Sad to say, I have no idea. I am working hard (always am) but there are days (like today) where I start to wonder what am I doing. Sometimes I see a glimpse of what I can possibly do, sometimes I don’t. Right now, I’m wondering if I’m going in the right direction. Right as in right for me, not right in the sense of what others may think.
It’s funny how some people expect a clear direction / answer to the “what you want to do” question. Must I really have one clear path? One and only one? I don’t know, I can see myself being happy in a lot of areas. I’ll be happy working (in areas where I have an interest in), doing graduate studies, or getting married and being a housewife (HAHA least possible option).
Sigh. I will work hard so that one day (hopefully soon) I can proudly announce on the blog that I’m happily doing ____________ and carving out a niche for myself.
On the other hand, I’m really grateful to all those who have been leaving me comments. Was reading the comments on the previous post about TOPIK and I realize that I should start putting in more effort to prepare for the exam. Less than one month to go. Aside from the issue whether TOPIK 6 is an accurate reflection of Korean proficiency or not, the fact still remains that I’m taking an EXAM and hence I should prepare for it. I don’t want to leave any room for regrets that I could have done much better if I had put in more effort. Passing it is definitely within my limits and I don’t want to whine and whine about it afterwards when I didn’t even put in the effort required. ^^
So I shall leave aside Japanese for now and start to concentrate on TOPIK ^^ Kinda personal achievement? I want to show myself that I can do it.
No use talking, I’ll work quietly on it!
Again, very very thankful that I have you guys around <3